went to bring my cousin to the bus stop jz now..
on the way back, went to pick pine cones w my sis..
haha.
long time nv do these kind of stuff le..
kinda..
brings back my childhood memories..
the innocence, the hopeful and gullible spirit,
the things that i definitely miss having in me.
haha. not that im evil and schemin,
but it's just that, i dont believe in things so easily now.
cz my logic and common sense is always there to pull me back.
but,
lookin on the bright side,
now im able to differentiate right from wrong.
and i know how to make decisions.
of cz, il need help now and then,
but im definitely more independent and can think for myself.
haha.
yea.
and i had been readin some stuff.
snaps me out of my dreams somehow.
i know that il miss this feelin,
but, no matter what,
i am so gna pull myself out of this.
no more lingerin around here.
i AM going to get out.
the decision is final,
(whoever is voted out will be asked to leave the tribal council area immediately)
haha.
-_______-"
im gettin lamer.
self-entertaining nowadays.
haha.
perhaps to make myself forget some stuff ba..
so that it will not be on my mind ALL THE TIME.
which is gettin a little on my nerves.
oh but il prove to you.
il show you what im capable of.
haha.
dont worry.
i wont be plannin anything evil.
just show you what I CAN DO.
even w/o YOU.
yea mans.
this is gna be a new year for me and im not gna do what i did before.
which reminds me.
im gna study later.
im so gna mug like mad and show ppl what i can do.
haix.
but one thing,
i got this feeling that il lose this motivation soon.
it had always been like for the past two years..
haix.
shall see how ba..
but il try to keep this motivation in me as long as possible.
il persevere..
and yea.
meng jiat, il stop thinking so much and will snap out of it really, really soon.
give me some time,
and il be through.
:D
oh yar.
forgot to thank yeesam for the early bdae prez.
card + friendship band..
thanks alot alot.
im touched :)
and mj, whatever you are plannin,
im thankin you in advance first :D
thanks.
at least ive got good friends near me..
hms..
i need to think,
and sort out my thots.
im gna do it, arent i?
yea mans.
haha.
DOTS.
im spending my timewatching the days go by.feeling so smalli stare at the wall.hoping that youthink of me too.~nah. probably not. haha.
mata atode..
