happy belated 2nd (:

life's been.... alright i guess.
exams are giving me a big headache, literally.
im having one right now.
but thank God that this sem only got 3 exams.
so its really not that bad.
i think.

hmm sighs.
sometimes i just want to run and hide somewhere where at least il feel good about myself.
i hate myself more than anyone out there does.
im harder on myself than anyone else is to me.

sighs.
one more paper on wed and im done for this sem.
and il walk towards facing the last school semester of my life.
no more school life for me after that.
how sad is that?
i dont want to grow up. i dont.
I DONT WANT TO GROW UP.
i dont want to go out there and face the ugly world.
i dont want to stand there and shoulder responsibilities that will weigh me down, make me age faster and hold me back.

i wonder what God has for me in the future.
i wonder what God wants me to do.
i wonder what God has in store for me.

i still hate myself tho.
sighs.
i want to get a life.

mata ne..

depressed. ><

mata ne..

so you think i disappointed you?
i am the product of your doings.
so blame yourself.

mata ne..

i dont like it when ppl take it that giving up my time for their group is a natural thing to do.
honestly, right from the start i never wanted to commit.
i am super busy in school.
if i were to commit more than what i do now, i will die.
and you dont care do you.
if there are ppl who are busy, then just take it that they cant be in charge of the many things that you try to entrust to them!
urgh. seriously.

mata ne..