CM1111 WAS A COMPLETE ULTIMATE KILLER.
utter crap-ness. totally.
die le lar!!!
so many lewis structures dont know how to draw!!
[B₃O₃(OH)₃] and [Be₄(OH)₁₀]^2-
HOW TO DRAWW omggggggggg.
this one even more complicated.
CH₃CH₂MgBr(OEt₂)₂
=((((((((((((((
ah but according to desmond, the latter is 2 ethers stabilizing the grignard reagent.
WELL DONE.
i totally skipped that part cz i thot it was too cheem for it to be tested.
along with the reason why lithium nitride is a potential hydrogen storage material and how lead pipes causes lead poisoning, which i skipped also cz i thot prof john yip put there for his own interest sake.
as in, he put there cz he just wna "fyi" us and not literally to test us on it.
=(((
DIE.
when i saw the qns i was like O.O
ahh those who knows how to do dont laugh at me okayy.
i know im lousyy. =(
ahh hopefully the bell curve can save me.
then again,
even if everyone fail, it doesnt mean anything.
cz if alot alot alot of ppl fail by one mark and i fail by 20, im still at the bottom of the bell curve wad.
competitionnnn =(
AHHHHH DIE LE LAR.
monday still got math paperr.
dont feel like mugging le.
WHERES MS TENG WHEN I NEED HER!
ms teng i want remedial with you!!
hahahah.
which reminds me, maybe when jc starts i can go back and see see a while.
shall see how.
RAWRRRRR.
i need to get back to mugging!!
last paper!!!
go go go!
aiya but actually, since the first two papers on monday had ended, i was already quite burnt out.
lets hope that i can last..
have been pushing myself very hard since the GEM 2507 which was like more than two weeks ago.
i realise cannot do hard core chionging for too long.
at least not for my stamina at the moment.
sigh. but still, who cares. exams still go on.
back to mugging.

ps. TEN BROTHERS IS A NICE SHOW I WNA REWATCH IT AFTER MY EXAMS!
pps. maple's new job pirates is out! i shall check it out after exams!
ppps. im starting to make post exam plans already! =D

mata ne..

life is sucky due to the GROWING INDIFFERENCE in the attitude of the ppl around me.
big deal right.
i make the effort to go talk and they just brush me off like that.
snap at me, ignore me, dont reply me, or just ANYHOW reply me.
YOU GUYS THINK YOURE THE ONLY ONES WHO ARE TIRED AND SICK OF EVERYTHING?
catching up with friends is a choice that i made.
so pls dont make it seem like its so DUH for me to talk to you.
arrogance.
i can choose NOT to.
you guys havent lost friends and youve got no idea what it means to lose precious frens and feel alone.
everyone just takes the ppl around them for granted.
friendships are meant to be maintained by both parties.
if one side chooses to give it up, theres nothing the other can do.
maybe its just me making a big deal out of it.
maybe EVERYONE wants to move on and only im the only one trying to hold the past tgt.
OH MAYBE NOW ITS WRONG TO CATCH UP WITH FRENS.
ppl just make friends so that they can make use of them
when they are of no use, oh they just dump them away like some old stuffed toys that used to calm you down during nightmares and youve no need for them anymore.
and guess what?
im not talking about the same group of ppl.
im talking about different groups.
so i say, its a growing trend for ppl to heck care about the ppl around them.
check your attitudes, when you complain about being alone, isit cz of your attitude that is driving others away.
go on, hate me for what i said.
HAHAH.
back to mugging,
at least im facing notes and not ppl.

if i didnt care too, would i be grumbling nonstop here?

mata ne..

OMGGGG IM FREAKING OUTT!! =(((

ah ive been mugging like nonsense!
=(
hope i can make it mans.
i have to pull up my mid terms, no kidding.
sigh, so anyway,
exams are starting tmr.
cm1101, ec1301 on monday, cm1111 on friday, and ma1421 on the following monday.
lets hope i dont screw up mans.
if not i really dont know how to study le.
:/
okay so lets see.
i like to draw orbitals, cz i think the orbitals i draw are very nice.
hybridised or not. =)
MO diagrams are fun too, but i think recently i just confused myself.
i need to go read my notes again.
i sudd duno how to assign the symmetry for the p_z orbital.
hmm.
i hate the application of VB-MO theory.
dont like explaining the acid base part and the classical coulomb attraction and duno what dispersion thing cz i cant tell the diff =(
i like macroecons.
but i hate the way they keep asking abt one component then you have to go through the whole process just to find the answer.
sth like..
when interest rates increase, what happens to the imports?
then i have to, when i/r increase, money demand decrease, less of your own currency flowing in the market, your currency becomes more valuable, currency appreciates, your goods seem more expensive to others, others' goods seem cheaper, so import increases.
or you can say, i/r increase, consumption and investment increase, AD curve shift upwards, price of your goods become higher, your goods become more expensive, others' goods become cheaper, import increases.
correct me if im wrong.
zzzz. like, SO MAFAN CAN.
its cz my brain is slow lar, then thinking process become damn long =(
ah i dont like microecons cz i dont like the way they keep telling us to calc and compare, ATC, AVC, AFC, TFC, TVC, MC, TC etc.
THEY ALL LOOK THE SAME TO ME CAN.
zzzzzzz.
ah ohwels.
enough complaining.
end up still have to study and take the exam.
JIAYOU EVERYONE!
jiayou to myself too.
alriteyyy..
lets' get down to work. =)

mata ne...

gloria cant express herself properly recently.
il try to explain myself and put my point across as much as possible, but when i stop talking, i suddenly dont know what im talking about.
ive been getting very odd feelings.
im not making sense to myself.
others are not making sense to me.
i duno how to react in the right ways.
like i can be laughing like crap at sth but i actually dont think its that farnie.
i feel that some of my smiles are quite fake and stiffed no matter how hard i try to smile from inside.
i try to fix sth but it gets worse instead.
or il solve the problem with very wrong solutions.
i keep saying the wrong things which i dont actually mean.
i dont know how to say the right things to make sad ppl feel happier.
WHATS WRONG!
i think im losing control of myself.
something came and froze whats inside of me.
im losing touch with that part of me.
i cant feel myself anymore.
its this sudden numbness that seeps into every inch of me.
i dont want to become indifferent to the matters happening around me!
i want to do something about it.
i want myself back.
i feel like im being transformed at this alarming speed tht even i cant catch up with the change.
ive been mugging like shit and i dont feel tired.
but when i really force myself to nap, i realise im actually very tired.
eh is being able to stay awake a good thing?
ive got no idea!
im so lost i really dont know what im doing.
i dont know what i want.
all i know is that im working very hard for an exam that i dont even know if il do well in.
theres this darkness that swarms into me.
im like losing all my senses.
oh goshh.. whats happening!

mata ne..

im back in nyjc mugging.
chuanxin and xueqi is supposed to come, but apparently they are coming only in the aftnn.
hm wels.
the feeling is the same, mugging in ny..
just that the canteen benches are irritating cz the bench is too far away from the tables.
hahaha.
and that my econs and chem notes look alot harder than the last time i was here studying for exams.
carol's not here to complain that shes fat.
the guys are not here anymore.
kok's not here for me to complain that im tired of mugging and emo and reminisce.
wc's not here to irritate and say he wants to eat and insists on eating at macs.
yuxi's not here to sing disney's fantillusion.
yd's not here slping and having us to wake him up.
mingkwang's not here to talk about oboe reeds.
derek's not here for me to constantly proclaim that he looks like carebear.
mingwei's not here for us to tell him to go eat grass cz he looks like a horse.
and the band room is not open for us to escape to!
=(
haha.
i should get back to mugging.

at 3:11pm - theres this huge group of students, think they are the new councillors or ogls or sth..
they are dancing to the mass dance for "best things in life are free".
they still got the "woo woo" tradition.
along with the very messy waltz part.
and the guys still dont dare to put their hand on the girls' waist.
hahaha.
i guess certain things still dont change after a few years.
i miss ny orientation. =(
and mr neo came to talk to me just now. haha.

mata ne..

do you know that erwin schrodinger had 2 wives and hes like a good fren of albert einstein?
i wonder if he called einstein by his first name.. hmm.
anw, he din like hitler and the nazis so he left germany.
he wrote a book called "what is life?" and it talks about genes and what nots.
(DeoxyriboNucleic Acid? :/)
and he died from tuberculosis in vienna in 1961.
hes not as ancient as i thot he was.
well, thanks to him.
i have to study this 7-decade old equation called the SCHRODINGER EQUATION.
zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz!!!!!
can he be less smart and come up with a less complicated equation!
can i not learn how the hamiltonian operator works?!
=((((((
bah-ness.
maybe i shld just skip cm1101 lecture 3 notes.
it'll kill me.
if the electron behaves like both a particle and a wave then let it be so!
leave it alone!
why bother about such a tiny particle that weighs only 1.673x10^-27kg?!
=((
curiousity doesnt kill a cat.
it kills the cat's future generations cz the younger cats will now have to learn the lessons that the older cat had learnt, in theory.
sucks lar.
im going crazy.
im trying to push myself very very hard.
i wna emo about the world and the ppl in it instead of spamming my blog with unknown knowledge!
='(

mata ne..

550th post =)
GEM 2507 50% final test tmr.
AHHHHHHHHHH.
IM A MUGGER IM A MUGGER IM A MUGGER!!!
RAWRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR.

mata ne..

jack of all trades, master of none.
much better than grandmaster of one!

mata ne~

a quick update.
first, HAPPY BDAE LIRONG!
you know i love you the most right!
woot! 7 years!
dont know what il do without you! =(
hahha.
hope you have fun and mug hard!!
il have a proper celebration with you another day.
=D
alrite.
busy busy busy.
this week is the last week of sch, which means that exams are coming.
i have a GEM test this friday..
50% :O
die.
my very last lab report is due this friday as well..
but its a full lab report! :/
anw, last lab session last friday was damn fun la omg.
lab mates were damn fun, along with desmond and ms tang.
or dr tang? ah i duno what to call her.
hahaha. anw, cm1101 lab 3B1 sem 1 '08 is damn fun de okay!
too bad no more le.. sadded.
aft that, went to eat dinner with cousins yiling, kor kor and lifang!
cz its cousin xiaoqi's wedding.
that friday i nv slp at all lar.
lasted all the way till sat night.
in the middle got nap 1, 2 hours but once i slp i really concussed le.
mum couldnt wake me up.
hmm but it was fun, i shall do a proper update next time.
sch still sucks like shit.
i duno, 13 weeks seemed to fly past.
i feel like i still havent settled down yet.
but right now im just immuning myself from everything by mugging all the time.
mugging keeps my mind occupied so that it wont drift.
in sch im like talking to stressed up ppl.
everyone is in bad mood.
ah me also lar, i know.
but i guess bad moods are contagious?
as long as one person feels grumpy, everyone around that person is affected.
ohwels.
ah i still miss my old frens.
somehow i feel that im in this time lapse.
sth is pulling me forward, my studies, new uni frens..
but half of me still misses jc life alot.
reliving my mistakes, pain, joy, laughter.
and seeing them everyday.
the them will know who they are.
haha.
old memories.
OH NO STOP!
TIME TO GO BACK AND MUGGGGGGGGG.
last lab report!
oh.. and im really worried that i cant make it for sem test.. :/

mata ne~

i got these stubborn brown stains on my hands cz of lab ytd.
i think its cz of the nickel ion in my solution, isit?
hmm..
ive listened to webcast for the first time last night.
all the way till 2:30am.
whoa, i din know it was so good listening to webcast.
cz you can catch everything that is being said.
well done.
more webcasts and we can all stay at home and stop worrying abt travel fares and time.
ive been mugging.
i really have.
but maybe still not hard enough.
damnit.
booos.
theres this someone who keeps nagging at me everytime im online.
ask me shldnt i be catching up on my work.
keep bugging me tell me go back study.
zzzzzzzzz.
NICE BASTARD.
hmm i just had dinner w kok, mingkwang, samuel and weihao at new york new york!
i still feel like eating candy floss.
shit la.
eating so much nonsense, i need to go on a diet. =(
but i need to cheer myself up and distract myself!
I NEED TO STARDIEEEEEEE.
study and forget the world!
sigh.
random rants.
its time to get back to work.
"i will stay half demon a little longer for you."

mata ne..