rahh!
so many things to do, so little time.
i cant do my maths how!?!
i really want to give up le!
but i cant!
i need to pass two h2s!
my phys is very hopeless case le.
and my maths is even worst!
but i dont understand phys and i understand some parts of maths!
so how!?
die lar..
i need to pass one of them to get promoted!
damns.
somebody save me!
im sooo sooo dead.
jap oral this thurs!
damns.
im dead.
i cant speak jap for nuts!
i die le.
i so long nv prac my jap.
a few million words forgot le.
then i nv learn much new words also!
vocab super limited.
:'(
but recently aunt got talk to me in jap.
okayy lar.
i still understand.
but nv really try to speak in long sentences cz i scared she will scold me or sth.
then some more she was speakin to me in jap when i went joggin w her.
pls lar.
i tired until like shit alr.
brain not workin le still speak to me in jap.
haha.
ahh!
nvms.
this is prelims only.
i WILL jiayou and get good results for jap.
ehh.
can i?
shit.
il try ba..
kok tell me to think in jap.
whoaa..
haha.
hai!
watashi wa ganbarimasu..
nihongo de kangaemasu..
taihen ne!
totemo muzukashii..
demo, watashi wa kangaete mitte ne!
haha.
damns lar.
got SPA agn this week.
chem.
screwed up the last skill CD chem spa.
cant screw this up any more.
die.
immense stress.
die die die.
and and,
i got econs test this tue.
rahh!
i hope i can make it.
really.
i cant fail anymore.
cz im so on the brink of giving up.
haix.
ohwels.
how am i gna make it..?
seriously.
haix.
ayye you arh..
keep askin you whether you are okay anot.
then you keep tellin me you are fine.
cz of that stupid book, i dont dare to ask you and probe you to make you rant.
i mean, you cant keep going on like this!
i really hope you are not bottling up!
its unhealthy!
hope theres really some way where you can throw everything out.
you tell me you are fine, but obviously you are not.
ive talked to you for soo damn long and not a single "haha" frm you.
and i jolly well know that you always type a "haha" now and then.
come on lar.
you are one jolly bean like me.
i know how ppl like me will react when they are sad lar.
haix.
i really hope you will become happier soon..
we are always here for you anytime you need us yea?
and you know who are the "we" i am referrin to.
ohwels.
tday in church i had this verse.
quite nice leh.
:D
Mark 11:24 "Therefore I tell you, whatever you ask for in prayer, believe that you have received it, and it will be yours."
whoosh.
cool right!
i used to have a memory verse frm somewhere.
cant rmb where.
and it goes sth like this, "Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding. In all ways acknowledge Him, and He will keep your path straight."
think somewhere in Romans isit?
ohwels.
i need to renew my faith in God mans, seriously.
He will work a miracle and hlp me to pass my promos!
haha.
yes He will.
:D
ehh.
so positive arh me..
haha.
cz im quite high and happy tday.
altho stressed at the same time.
haha.
hms.
alrites lar.
thats all for tday.
thank you and have a nice day.
eh!
haha.
that sounds so familiar.
heard it somewhere..
orh.
morning assembly.
HAHAHA.
SUPER DIAOS.
haha.
okok.
lirong!!
meetin up with you some where near your bdae kay!
i put here to remind myself.
altho its quite impossible that il forget your bdae.
haha.
yes you and your pek chek as the theme of the year.
haha.
MISS YOU DEAR!
il see you soon..
:D
haha.
heard abt jiayi..
mans.
i really hope its not true..
hope shes doing fine really.
jiayi! if you are readin this, which i think you wont be, but anws,
you need to come back kay!
:(
ehhh ehh.
okok.
i need to go le..
haix.
minasan, ganbatte ne.
ureshikunatte kudasai!
toku ni, anata desu!
hai hai.
jya, owarimasu..

far longer than forever,
il hold you in my heart.
its almost like you're here with me,
altho we're far apart..

mata atode..