tday was just lidat lor.
think tday the sms system got prob arh.
we received the msg that ms yap sent to us last week again.
as in, the same msg sent to us last week was sent to us again tday, but it is not frm ms yap.
is this no. lar.
we call back also no one answer.
i received once wor.
ms yap received 10 plus times.
huiyu received 28 times.
and the winner is wanteng who received 130plus times.
whoaa.
luckily is the sms system got prob.
we were all thinkin like whos the psycho lar.
realised that when kok told me his classmates also kena.
but the msg they received was supposedly frm mr low.
the hp no. that sent them the msg was the same as ours tho.
this matter kept us rather busy for some time cz we were all damn worried abt whats happening.
huiyu even called singtel to ask.
then that person say
1. you call the police
2. we change your hp no. for you.
*sarcastic* quite helpful lar actually.
huiyu also called her fren who is a police lar.
mans.
so scaree.
ohwels.
at least thats sth to spice up our boring sch life.
eh.
tday bad day.
that poh arh.
she gave me 12.5 marks for my maths lecture test arh.
then she say she too lenient le.
so i dropped frm 12.5 to 6.5/30.
-shruggs-
am i numb to failing or am i numb to failing?
tday got maths make up lesson.
supposed to be OBT de.
then the smart poh wanted to save her face cz she told us that she can only push the test till tday.
so she was like, "eh class! are you all prepared for the test anot? not prepared then i push to aft the hols."
*sarcastic* oh wows! thats soooo damn nice of you, ms poh.
anws,
i din do my differentiation tutorial.
nah, i hardly do my tutorials.
cz i always got so many things to do?
ohwels.
then poh called me up to do this qn.
i din do mar, so i wanted to borrow huiyu or sunyu's paper.
then poh was like, "ayye you are supposed to present YOUR own ans leh!"
i said, "but i dont know how to do!"
aiya i know lar.
its is an excuse but its partially true wad.
anws, then she say, "ayye class! you all should encourage gloria to do her tutorials mar!"
i said, "but ms poh! im very busy recently leh! i got my jap papers! "
she said, "then you shld organise your time!
"but ms poh! my jap very impt leh! i got prelim paper tmr!"
"promos also impt mar!"
"my jap is TMR, ms poh."
she started half-mumbling, "see lar! who tell you to take jap arh? told you dont take jap le. you take jap then you must know how to cope."
"i am TRYING to! i got jap, i need to study that first!"
i looked away.
"gloria! do you know i am very worried for you?"
"YAR I KNOW."
then she went back to teachin.
at that point of time arh, i was super pist.
i was so upset, like i din know that i am not doing well.
then she had to come along and rub salt into my wound.
i know i am supposed to be able to cope cz i chose to take one more subj.
but its bcz I AM TRYIN AND NOT SUCCEEDIN thats why i produce such results right!
like i dont know what i am supposed to do.
and STOP TELLIN ME WHAT I SHLD HAVE OR SHLDNT HAVE DONE.
cz that is IN THE PAST.
i cant change what i alr did.
whats the point of tellin me what i shld or shldnt have done?
like it will help me to get better results lidat!
what i need now is NOT you tellin me what i shld have done in the past but what i can do NOW to help myself.
you are not doing that.
she is making me feel worst.
damns.
for the next half an hour i sat there starin at her teach, but was tryin to hold back my tears.
i really feel so screwed up.
i hadnt been passin.
really.
aft midyears, i only passed my econs paper one.
the rest i all failed.
even my gp.
by half a mark.
and i screwed up all my papers lar.
mine is not the borderline fail de.
mine is really the "fail" kind de.
what can i do?
what IS THERE FOR ME TO DO?
i feel so screwed up.
i dont think there is a way to bring me out of this.
i am gna retain.
die.
but i cant seem to accept the fact that that is gna happen to me.
being me, i wont allow these stuff to happen to myself de.
but it is inevitable.
isit?
i dont know.
i really dont know what to do.
jap paper tmr.
i really feel like ponnin sch.
what to do?
i haven been in a more screwed situation.
find some way to end all these..
damns.

mata..