FOUR days to promos.
haix.
had been tryin to study in sch.
mr neo was damn nice lar.
so touched.
haha.
mans.
talkin abt him reminds me of the thailand trip.
thailand now very messy lehh.
shit lar.
i hope the trip doesnt get cancelled.
anws, its not time to think abt this.
haix.
promos.
ehhh.
hms.
ytd i had a mixture of moods.
in the morn i was nostalgic and sad.
then towards the noon time i was damn frustrated.
esp aft the two hours chem lesson.
i felt soo gek you know.
cz i cldnt do the same wrkst the prev day then she went thru ytd.
and two hours of chem tutorial was traumatising.
i felt so gek that my head was hurting, i felt damn stifled inside.
it was so stuffy.
it seems as if i was claustrophobic.
i was sittin in the front row.
and ms yap closed the door somemore.
i felt so claustrophobic, so frustrated, so agitated.
my brain wasnt workin either.
ms yap some more go thru the harder qns.
whoa.
i wanted to get out sooo sooo damn much.
so fustrated.
then we had readin programme.
had to do SUMMARY.
whoa the worst thing to do when you are frustrated.
then i keep makin alot of noise cz i was tryin to vent.
i was so noisy and frustrated.
haha.
then met up with regi and kok they all.
went to eat lunch tgt.
aft that, we all talked for a while.
then dont know why, kok started singin, "ive got peace by the river".
haha.
then he started doing the actions.
then i joined in.
somehow, we ended up askin each other abt some christian songs.
so kok let me listen to this song.
if im not wrg, he played solo for that song before.
then i was listenin to it, i sort of calmed down le.
haha.
then went on to listen to more christian songs before movin on to other songs.
and i really calmed down a great deal.
its amazing how God can use these praise songs to talk to me.
and its thru a non christian.
just when i thot that God is ignoring me,
He hints to me that He is there even thru small little things, like a hymn song.
cool..
haha.
haix.
ohwels.
need to go rush my EOM le.
hms
glad that my grp's WR content is there.
but our organisation sucks so badly mans.
haha.
ohwels.
we will worry abt that later.
oh and tmr is mj's bdae!
haha.
i shall wish mj HAPPY BDAE in advance!
haha.
tmr we all gg thai express to eat.
:D
yay!
haha.
hmms.
sian sian.
promos.
ehh.
my head feels damn tight.
haven bathe yet.
shld go now.
and then come backk and do EOM.
oh, when i just reached home, i saw uncle daniel they all lar.
then germaine is here again!
haha.
so adorable.
adorable little girl.
:D
hms.
haha.
haix.
why am i feelin guilty?
why do i feel that its my fault?
ohwels.
i shld dump these aside and concentrate on studies first.
but everywhere i go, something will really trigger it off.
there will be this "something" there that will remind me.
haix.
ohwels.
DONT CARE.
DONT CARE.
damns.
one step at a time pls.
hms.
oh, thanks mj for being there and helpin me..
holding my hand all the time.
you were there almost anytime, and anywhere.
and you sure have a way with me!
haha.
and regi! so near yet so far? haha.
thanks for givin me moral support.
tho you were not beside me, i can feel you supportin me mentally!
your note rocks mans.
haha.
shi! you had been the encouragin one mans.
somehow, your words seem so powerful that it can pull me up frm my fall.
you can really cheer me up.
continue to be farnie and let me laugh at you kay!
haha.
whoa kok!
really thanks for lending me a listenin ear.
your psychic skills is.. superb.
good hor.
lidat dont have to say much at times.
and just simple words can really speak alot.
haha.
and mr neo also.
nice teacher.
nv had such a nice teacher before lar.
for a moment i dont know how to reply.
haha.
hms.
really need to go le..
its late.
10.34pm.
still got EOM.
haix.
will my headache ever go away?
trying hard to promote..

mata ne..