i thot i was fine alr.
i thot i was gettin over it.
i thot i was movin on.
i thot band prac tday wld make me feel better.
i thot.
thot.
it was fine at first.
really.
then mr yeo came in to give some instructions.
and he said sth abt the contract players.
so he looked at me and he said, "gloria, do your job eh."
meaning, bring warmth, bond the band, yada yada yada.
then he added, "btw arh gloria, are you worried abt your results?"
i was like, "yar."
and he looked to the band, "yar band, who is worried abt your results?"
then some ppl raised their hands, including me.
he talked to shirley for a while, then he counted.
then he pointed to some ppl and said, "i know your case, i know your case.."
and he pointed at me and said, "i know your case."
and he went on..
as if nothing happened.
when what he said hit me real hard.
it hit me deep into the ground.
deep down into the core of the earth.
that instant, i felt it all come back to me again.
everything.
the feelin, everything was back.
no mood to play my instru le.
simple parts also dont know how to play.
i cant even make a good sound.
what the hell.
whatever.
im havin a headache since band prac.
its really hurting.
aiya whatever lar.
went for jap.
had a conver with baoxian.
guess what?
it seems like everyone has the same script for this wonderful show!
"gloria! hows promos results?"
"bad."
"but can promote right?"
-shakes head-
"har.. really arh.."
haix.
then now come home le.
haix.
dont feel like bloggin anymore.
so hard.
its so hard.
btw, thanks lirong, leon, shi, yining..
want to do this no more.
keep me away, take me.
leave everything behind.
and soar into the sky.
cant, cant, cant.the baggage is too heavy.fallin, fallin, fallin.the wings are now bleeding.everyone is flying high.above the clouds, into the sky.no one seems to be falling.no one but me.who to heal my wings?who to lead and guide?a desire to depart.kiss all goodbye..
really want to cry.
but the tears have dried up.
totally.
i hear the echo of my footsteps.and each one gets heavier.mata atode..