tday go church, come home, slp alot again, watch matrix revolutions and come online.
everyday just passes like that.
i really wish i can just leave everything behind and go away.
really go away.
but i have too many responsibilities.
too many.
way too many.
even simple things like the notice board and the band dinner is holdin me so tightly.
i just cant give them up lidat.
its way too unfair.
unfair to the ppl who are directly or indirectly affected by them.
im so tired.
i can hardly move anymore.
but i have to.
i need to complete all these first.
i need to.
i keep tellin myself, "come on, i need you to complete these things. come on. get up and do it. finish them and you are done."
and mr neo is pushin me to do things.
he msged me tday to tell me to send out the invites soon so that can get the confirmed attendance for the dinner asap.
i cant stop here.
everything is pushin me, tellin me, "move on, move on."
simply refuses to let me stop and rest.
i just need one day,
one full day to myself and replenish my energy.
but everything is pushin me.
"move on, move on."
i cant run anymore.
im laggin, laggin behind.
"move on. quick! speed up! everyone is ahead of you!"
eh damnits.
this is gettin real dramatic.
i shall stop.
its gettin ridiculous.
thanks to annie for givin me a real inspirational talk.
lotsa cheem stuff for me to ponder over.
and thanks to regi for fri..
and thanks to kok for tday..
haix.
somehow,
i choose not to believe in certain things.
i choose not to.
cz the greatest disappointment comes from the strongest belief you have.
wel, of cz that excludes God.
thats a different case i guess.
somethings,
i just choose not to believe.
i am not gna believe.
in certain things.
ehh save me.
some things are becomin too overwhelmin for me to take.
Superman (It's not easy)
Five for Fighting
I can't stand to fly
I'm not that naive
I'm just out to find
The better part of me
I'm more than a bird;I'm more than a plane
I'm more than some pretty face beside a train
And it's not easy to be me
Wish that I could cry
Fall upon my knees
Find a way to lie
About a home I'll never see
It may sound absurd, but don't be naive
Even Heroes have the right to bleed
I may be disturbed, but won't you conceed
Even Heroes have the right to dream
And it's not easy to be me
Up, up and away, away from me
Well it's all right; you can all sleep sound tonight
I'm not crazy or anything
I can't stand to fly
I'm not that naive
Men weren't meant to ride
With clouds between their knees
I'm only a man in a silly red sheet
Digging for kryptonite on this one way street
Only a man in a funny red sheet
Looking for special things inside of me
Inside of me (x4)
I'm only a man in a funny red sheet
I'm more than a man looking for a dream
I'm only a man in a funny red sheet
And it's not easy
It's not easy to be medifferent situations, similar thots.
its a wonder how songs and music can speak so much for you.
one day il fly away, leave all these to ytd..how did satine leave moulin rouge in the end?
dont worry.
i wont kill myself.
its not that extreme.
jya ne..
