this is like the 160th entry of this blog.
whoa.
i din know i blogged so much within like, 8 months.
anws, talked to regi over the phone ytd.
she very much convinced me, and made me feel loads better.
i wont say i feel alrite now,
but, better than the past few days?
thanks regi..
really.
thanks alot.
din know how you did it, but thanks.
and she told me so much crap lar.
she was so high some more, then very random.
then got alot of random stuff pop up.
really made me like, "huh? what?"
haha.
haix.
thanks regi..
anws, tday geok, wanteng xinrong, mervyn, stanley, jianlin and still got dont know who.
alot of ppl from my class lar.
they all ponned econs lect.
and they went to find poh to ask her to hlp those ppl in our class who are in danger of retainin.
yea i know.
includes me.
they went to find her and talked to her like, for 45 mins.
mans.
im really touched.
tho they din really succeed, but really want to thank them for makin the effort.
poh, as usual, act as if shes the righteous one, law by law i wld say.
and she said, "i will only help those ppl who are worth the help."
thats like..
i dont know.
"worth the help".
how do you define "worth the help"?
who is worthy who is not?
its like, i really dont know how to say.
what if she has a wrong perception of that person?
what if she doesnt like me?
then wldnt it be like, "orh, too bad for you."?
i dont know lar.
was really touched by my classmates they all.
really really.
and when i saw geok and xinrong crying,
i was like, "mans.."
then i din really know what to say.
guess our class is really bonded cz of jasmine poh lar.
common dislike.
or wld i say, common hatred?
oh wels.
tmr our class all gg on a rebel.
we all not gna present our OP.
"just stand there and press press the thing," as what geok said.
so every class the ppl all chionging for tmr's OP.
my class?
like nothing to do lidat.
just do the ppt then heck.
haix.
i think im really the worst.
like really no hope le.
other ppl got higher chance of promoting, cz they are not that far away from a pass.
but me..
i dont know.
haix.
i dont really want to talk abt this.
but.. it is constantly on my mind.
never left my mind for one sec.
not a fraction of a sec.
haix.
band prac tmr.
i wna go play instru.
i want to go and be part of the music.
thats why i joined band in the first place.
being part of the music, having the music speak for you.
but, i dont really want to meet the ppl.
everyone starts askin abt results.
then il get the same reaction.
"hey gloria! hows promos results?"
"eh bad.."
"haha. aiya can promote right?"
"cannot."
"oh."
-silence-
those who are more familiar with me will have this kind of conver.
"ayye gloria. hows promos results?"
"bad.."
"aiya cannot be that bad right. can promote anot?"
"cannot."
"really meh? cannot be lar. whats your results?"
and when i do tell them my results,
-silence-
and they give me that, i-empathise-with-you look.
i experience so much of all these that im sick of it.
haix.
ohwels.
this feelin can never be portrayed to anyone.
haix.
ohwels.
i 1 week nv play my horn le.
tmr go le cannot pitch all my high notes.
aiya who cares anw.
got jap tmr also.
its gna be exhausting.
and im bringin my laptop also.
whoa.
but i dont need bring notes.
so guess it shld be quite okay i think.
argh damns.
dont feel like bloggin le.
i shall be off.

'Cause you'll be in my heart
Yes, you'll be in my heart
From this day on
Now and forever more
You'll be in my heart
No matter what they say
You'll be here
in my heart always
Always

mata ne..