wahlaooooo....
so long nv blog le.
shit mans.
cz internet connection got prob sia.
then the moment i got online on thurs night i was dc immediately.
haix.
then called up the person at singtel there and he screwed up my modem.
whoa damns.
i dont want to talk abt my fixing-the-internet-connection experience.
its super traumatising.
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anws, i managed to finally get it done tday, aft all the callin up and eth.
whoa sehs.
the ppl there at singtel helpdesk alr know me alr.
like, "whoa is that ms koh callin again."
damns.
eh not that they said that, but..
you get the idea.
hms.
and whats worst is that, when i finally finished eth,
i was pluggin some last stuff and eth.
my dad just came over to the comp and he sat down then he logged off my account on the comp.
then he signed in his.
WITHOUT EVEN ASKIN ME, MIND YOU!
damnits.
whoa i was super pist.
but at least i get to use the comp now.
aft tellin him that i need the comp and he gave me that bushuang face.
damns.
dont talk abt it le.
3 days to blog abt.
alot alot.
hms.
got my results on thurs..
and yea, good news, i got promoted.
glad that i made it thru.
thank God really.
brushed past.
and i know i wldnt have made it without God’s help.
guess i really have to learn to trust God and let Him work accordin to his plan.
i shld let God do His work and not interrupt.
hms.
but i can still feel the burden..
dont know leh.
like the truth havent sink in yet.
and, like its not very.. haix.
how to say lehh.
aft we got our results, all of us waited outside the classroom for the ppl inside..
haix.
a few of us began to cry?
cz we know things are not gna be the same anymore.
i saw wanteng and i was like, really..
whoa..
hms.
kok msged me also..
haix.
hms..
i cld see the class spirit on thurs mans..
thats really great..
sheesh..
ppl, pls take care of yourselves.
everyone of you out there.
aftwards, i was walkin home and it began to rain.
walkin in the rain brings me the nostalgic feelin again.
began to think.
again.
yea i know.
i think i think too much le.
erps.
nvms.
then when i was on the lrt, there was this lil girl sittin in front of me.
and she had a hamster in her hand.
like, no cage no nothing.
just that hamster.
and she was playin with it lar.
like, let it run on her hand, put it on her skirt, put it on the seat..
so i was watchin her and the hamster.
it reminded me so much of the hamster that i used to have.
yea the one that the jnrs gave me for pop.
huiwei the ham, named after huiwei.
haha.
still rmb the way she scratches her head, washed herself, eat the sunflower seeds..
but i cld hardly hold her cz i was hardly at home.
and she bites me when i try to hold her.
sad..
and how she looked like before she died.
big, swollen eyes..
she hardly ate.
became hyperactive and ran around in circles.
mans.
i dont think i shld talk abt it anymore.
hms.
then on fri, no need to go sch lar..
in lieu of dont know which hol.
seriously, i until now still dont know why fri that day no need to go sch.
not like i want to, but i dont know why dont need leh.
ohwels.
ppl say dont need to go then i didnt lor.
haha.
hms.
oh yea.
that poh dont wna sign my OGL form.
thats that i guess.
God’s plan, let it be that way.
tho il miss a really great experience.
haix.
who tell me dont wna study hard enough.
eh did i not?
ohwels.
shant ponder abt it no more.
anws, i had to go for jap.
last day of jap..
after the super long 5 years.
whoa..
all the "had to miss cca becz of jap" since a long time ago.
and all the drag feet to moelc kind of feelin.
and all the scared of not being able to understand rubbish.
and all the do the jap hw rubbish.
not like im accomplished aft like, 8 years of muggin jap.
but im gna miss the feeling.
the feelin of doing more homework and havin more tests than other ppl.
haha.
haix.
jap lessons.
mans..
im really gna miss it.
think il cont my jap studies..
aft all these.
its really a waste if i lose everything that i have now.
hms.
think il think abt all these aft my AOs ba.
hms.
i miss all the senseis also!
esp my senseis!
like, koh sensei, chua sensei, muto sensei, seetow sensei, endo sensei!
haha.
hms.
now i think abt it, i forgot how koh sensei looks like le!
damns.
think very long nv see her le.
since sec1?
my goodness.
where did she go?
hms.
anws, aft lessons, deb gave me a prez and thanked me for being her jap mate for so long.
whoaaa..
so sweet lar you!
:D
then i went for youth meetin.
pastor keep callin on me to ans qns lar!
he kept pickin on me!
like ask me what we can learn abt the song and eth.
:/
ahh.
and samuel said sth that pist me off and kept me awake for quite some time when i tried to slp.
damns.
anws, tday, woke up.
went to sch to have the meetin.
the dinner meetin.
haha.
hms.
generally i tink the ppl in the ad hoc are all fun ppl!
haha.
then we meetin that time very fun de.
cz everyone has all sorts of crap ideas lar.
super farnie.
laugh until i wna die.
ahaa.
gd gd.
btw, all bandits!
the theme for the dinner is TROPICAL!
go wild!
be creative!
most creative gets a prize!
haha.
then aft we finished, the ppl who were in the band room played songs tgt.
we played some wolf song and grandfather's clock.
haha.
so fun.
:)
did my sight readin improve recently or are the recent pieces all relatively easy pieces?
hms.
haha.
then we all went to j8 to eat.
yupps!
at ljs.
yea and that kok ps us!
kok! im really gna give you that look!
im givin that look to you now!
-gives you THAT look-
haha.
dots.
ok nvms.
and yuxi cheat us say wna show us the chocolate cow!
mans.
then he say, "orh dont wna show you all le."
wahlao.
tskkkk.
irritating.
wna slam my bag into his face le.
haha.
alrite alrite.
then we walked around for a while and then we all went home le.
hms..
came home.
played ff6 for a while then went to lie on my bed and think.
yea the thinkin me took over the usual me.
haha.
haix.
hms..
why are some ppl just so scheming?
out to destroy ppl's lives just to get back at them?
wldnt it be better if you just act oblivious and pretend that you know nothing?
do not stumble ppl.
right?
hms.
and and, i just dont know how to express all these.
just keep i guess.
keep them.
and, i really dont know how to mend this broken vase.
it just falls apart.
once i thot i got it fixed, it falls apart.
im tryin, im tryin.
tho i keep gettin cut.
pls hlp me can?
dont just stand there and watch.
pls?
haix.
sometimes i think i rant too much.
but when i want to listen, ppl dont let me.
haix.
just, dont know how to say lar.
hms.
guess i might not be online for a while.
cz i need to get the modem and the router to uncle cp's house to fix.
dont know when it will be done tho.
now can only have one comp go online only.
that explains the dad-snatchin-comp-to-use incident.
haix.
ohwels.
i better let my sis use the internet before everything goes off for fixing again.
haix.
never been off my mind..

jya ne..