went to sch for op prac.
i still exceed the time by 15secs lehh.
haix.
hms.
aft op prac, went down for self prac.
tryin to pitch my that high A again.
but really cannot eh.
so i just told engseng that i cant make it ba..
hms the way he replies is really like the way that my parents talk to me.
its so..
like reverse psychology lidat.
parents always use reverse psychology on me also.
hms.
dont think he meant it lar.
as in, dont think he did that on purpose.
but i just felt it lor.
then was super stressed cz if i were to tell him that i cant make it, il feel super guilty.
but the fact is that i really cant.
so i said, il ask leon first.
but he say macpherson is too far from his house then he dont wna go.
ohwels.
so i tried to prac that high A.
managed to squeeze it out more often in a less constipated way.
but its still very squeezed and constipated.
haix.
made a commotion before leavin home.
din mean it, really.
i din mean to blow it up until like so, :/
haix.
sorry to kok, yongde, jiaheng..
thanks for standing up for me and consolling me and eth..
but feel so paisehs.
hope i din destroy anyone's life cz of that..
this is so hard to say out..
but i screwed up, big time.
just, lidat i guess..
dont really feel like talkin abt it anymore.
hms.
got junhao to help me.
see if he thinks the score is alrite.
if can, then il let him play.
if cannot, then nvms lor.
i will go.
its at macpherson worr..
not very near, but ohwels.
haix.
come on lar.
just tell me the truth.
you said no cz of her and not cz of the fact that it was too far right.
i hope im wrong cz i nv thot you wld be this kind of person.
disappointed.
when things happen, you see someone's true colours.
as time passes, you see the real face.
ohwels.
if thats how you regard me.
dont really care anws.
i know she is impt kay.
but it doesnt mean that you have the reason to forsake your frens also.
arh whatever.
dont care.
talked to yanzhu..
me darling jnr~~
pls take care alrite?
everything will be just fine.
thats what all snrs experience, so chill kayy.
haix.
lousy day.
tmr op.
last lap..
jiayou ny113~
we can do it!
lets do a good job kayy.
haix.
its gettin more complicated.
i dont feel like bloggin le.
mata atode..