yes im sick of everything.
haix.
so sianed.
so many things to do, so much stuff to settle..
and when i do things, il have to try to keep relationships intact.
mans.
haix.
dont know what to say lar.
talked to regi again.
its great talkin to her mans.
dont know leh.
our frenship with each other is just so different.
like, so different and weird from what we usually have with other frens.
hms.
dont know leh.
just, things are so complicated now.
mans.
i wish i was back in st nicks.
things are so much simpler and less confusing.
wee chong and me were just talkin abt it this aftnn.
oh this aftnn, band prac was crap.
we are playing some sinfonia sth sth song for syf.
isit confirmed?
i guess so.
like, dont want grandfather's clock le lar!
when i just managed to accept the fact that we are playing grandfather's clock for syf.
eh whatever.
so messy lar.
i hope this is the last change le.
frm songs of sailor and sea to grandfather's clock to sinfonia sth.
ohwels.
then hor, this sinfonia song,
got a whole load of HIGH As!!!!!!!!
DAMNS.
ouch.
i first time see so many high high notes in one score!
that time, first time encounter high A was the springtime celebration.
high A appear once only.
then i cldnt play it.
let xintian play lar.
haha.
syf that day only she and i think shujun played that note.
mans, my snrs...
:/
anws,
then if i rmb correctly, the next one wld be songs of sailor and sea le.
maybe the middle part got encounter before but cant rmb le.
anws,
high A appear twice, in the "soar" part for sailor and sea.
i still cannot play it.
:/
then now, WELL DONE.
high A like appear 7, 8 times in the sinfonia song!
damns.
wahlao.
i can barely pitch that note lar!
usually, that note comes out as a squeak only lar.
very can play so many times lar!
tht song is not easy mans.
or shld i say, VERY DIFFICULT.
damns.
now my teeth really hurts lar.
like, its gna drop out soon.
the pain you used to have when your tooth was threatening to come out a long time ago.
haha.
it hurts like crap.
and my lips also.
got the raw feeling again.
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ohwels.
got the key to the band rm tday.
gna go dwn tmr and do the invitations and pass to snrs.
haix.
band dinner band dinner band dinner.
haix.
hms.
i really dont know what to think.
so many things on my mind.
so so many.
then recently like keep havin insomnia.
since sun?
keep lying wide awake in bed then cannot slp.
:/
altho im like super tired.
last night i was awake for 2 hours lar.
haix.
so sian.
what to do?
haix.
i think i better go now and try to slp.
i hope i can fall aslp.
the broken vase keeps gettin broken.
i dont know how to fix it.
and it seems like only me who is tryin to fix it.
stop watchin me!
i need you to help.
mans.
i really miss the old times.
i miss it so so damn much.
haix.
ohwels.
anata ga shitte iru?
pls pls let it not be true.
i want to dispose my JC life away.
it seems so screwed up lar.
ohwels.

mata ne..