im such an ass.
bad day.
not just for me, but for other ppl as well.
i get snapped at, i snapped at ppl.
im sorry to those whom i snapped at.
and yuqing is such a darling.
an adorable jnr.
haha.
ohwels.
its just another lousy day ba.
and its over, thats what we shld be glad about.
band prac killed me.
sectionals in the morn.
i tried to hit that high A.
when leon was practising sinfonia with yuqing, she hit that high A in her score.
eh, im happy for her.
but at the same time, i feel like a total crap.
im such a loser crap horn player.
i dont think i can even be considered as one.
when i repeated the fact that yuqing can hit that high A, leon asked me what was my problem.
exactly.
my problem is that i can be practising like nobody's business and i dont seem to be improving.
really.
its not anything abt her you know.
yuqing is my darling jnr and will always be. =)
the problem lies with myself.
ah whatever.
sectionals for 1 hour.
practising for morning assembly with choir for another half an hour or so.
playing outdoors = sounds softer = play louder = almost blasting or even really blasting.
band prac for two hours.
played songs like, hot latin and music from the incredibles.
in other words, more blasting and high notes.
well done.
i killed my own lips tday.
but the blasting let me sort of vent the frustration ba.
i still sounded like shit tho.
my high notes are so, blaring and piercing.
very ci4 er3.
so eth gets back to me again.
aiya i cant play lar.
may as well just quit sia.
i just lack the courage and there are many things in band that i cant let go also.
ohwels.
tmr gg to philharmonics concert.
got projectionist duty in church also.
3 tests next week.
maths, chem, econs.
need to mug for my maclaurin's aft this.
aiya, everything just sucks for me okay.
eh.
i shant be self centered and say that cz i know many other ppl feels that way too.
alrite i shall make a generalisation thens.
damns.
life sucks for everyone eh.
mata ne..
