i am so totally drained tday also.
ms teng lar.
make me do so much of maths.
then it seems like as if she is intending to see me on fri also!
then shes gna give me more maths hw to do during chi new year.
oh my goodness.
anws, after band prac tday xinrong called me.
and i went to crash 'the one'.
=X
saw nathaniel and javin's items.
they are okay ba.
but two of them gave me the same impression lar.
like, they dress the same, the way they sing is the same, attire almost the same, style is also the same.
hms.
quite fun ba.
the ppl there all quite zi-high de.
tday Os' results are released.
to those who are happy, good for you!
continue to work hard!
to those who are unhappy, dont worry guys.
ive been thru that period too.
ask my OG mates if you guys dont believe.
its gna be alrite de.
use this 'upset-ness' as your strength to study hard in the coming two years and you will be just fine.
get over your results asap and concentrate on thinkin of ways to help yourself pass promos.
cz promos will be here sooner than you think.
and you dont want to regret like i did.
dont make history repeat itself again.
dont let yourself go through the same torture all over again.
cz lidat will only make yourself feel worst yea?
yupps.
just my two cents worth ba.
cz ive been through all these and i know how it feels like.
dont want ppl to follow in my footsteps tho.
hms.
tmr gg SAJC.
exchange with the SA band.
wah this means il see mychelle.
mans i miss her and all the talk crap sessions in jap class!
then endo sensei will scold the two of us.
mans.
mychelle~~ why ps me at the middle of the year!
ehhhs.
haix.
okay so il see her tmr.
SAJC band lehh.
wah i hear the name then i intimidated liao.
eh okay not so exaggerated.
zzz..
i really hate sch like no body's business now.
i wonder where does the drive to go sch every morning comes from.
perhaps fear, lack of courage, sense of guilt..
perhaps my frens, the little interest that i still have in my subjects, the little hope that i still hold on to.
oh wels.
guess thats life.
eh i wish i have a mouth zipper.
to zip up my own mouth.
i hate every single thing that im doing now.
i want to lock myself up.
just shut myself in and not care about anything else.
but i cant do that..
aiya, the upset-ness will always be there.
it becomes temporarily invisible at times.
just like the sun.
its always there, whether you see it or not.
and will appear whenever there are no clouds or when the earth shifts and moves away from the sun.
but, so what if you shift away?
it will come back to you.
i am walking on broken glass again.
i wish there wasnt such a thing called self censorship.
i wish there was more freedom of speech.
i wish there was no such thing as courage, so theres no need to pluck up courage to do anything.
i wish i knew what to do with you.

mata ne..