i forgot that 18th february was my blog's one year old bdae.
oh mans.
guess many things went into this blog.
it varied from the different events that happened in my life, to my thots and feelings.
talkin abt different ppl, scolding different ppl, thanking different ppl, recording the things that i did with different ppl.
looking back, the blog entries changed from a daily narration of events to the recent postings of abstract entries that maybe one day, when i read it again, i wont know what i myself was talking abt.
it recorded my ups and downs, happy times and unhappy times.
it recorded my relationships with many many ppl.
it recorded my lessons in life as well.
recently, it even got into trouble and i got so scared over it.
it is my life story.
and wels, i shall continue my life story right here.
hms.
got my jap H1 results today.
was kept in suspense for so long.
damn scared.
finally, realised that i got a B.
hm.
dont really know how to feel abt it.
its okay i guess.
i wanted a C and above and i got a B.
okay ba.
baoxian and tricia got A eh.
smart ppl.
nyjc did very well this year.
yea lor.
smart ppl everywhere.
haix.
i really dont know how to think.
it seems like everything that i had been doing was a pile of rubbish that ppl throw away.
literally walked away.
eyes that just looked away.
on the verge to give it up.
but, did i start it?
its a situation that i wish i didnt get myself into.
it bleeds inside.
the tears flow inside.
i wonder if my footsteps are the ones that are washed away by the sea.
maybe i shld be less self centered and focus on others instead.
maybe i had been thinking too much abt myself.
trash me up.
i wish i knew alot more.
or maybe i had all along been drawing myself an illusion.
maybe nothing existed.
waited for byg interval to pass yeesam her souvenir.
and i came home..
mata ne..