sat on the swing in sch with xinrong for 55 mins.
mans.
maybe shld have sat longer to make that an hour.
haha.
but my butt was hurting and my back was sweating like crap le.
wood is not a good conductor of heat you see.
haha.
tmr got phys class test.
i dont feel like studying for it.
cz
no1. the last time i had class test was last year mid year and i havent gotten back my paper yet.
no.2 tmr is the last time il see mr khoo before block test. can he finish marking by fri anot?
sheesh.
excuses.
okay im trying to study it yea..
i am so freaking sianded.
everything sucks from the beginning to the end, frm the head to the toe.
time and again, i try to find something to grab, to hold on to.
but everything slips through my fingers, just like that.
i wish i cld bring it back.
i find myself repeating the same things over and over again on this blog.
perhaps its the same things that are occupying my mind all the time.
its the same problems that il never be able to solve.
stuck in the same viscious cycle, unable to get out of it.
ive been trying to push things aside.
cz i know i must define my problems and my responsibilities very clearly.
but, just like some wicked disease, it seeps into my life, eating up every bit of my energy.
okay that sounded so literature.
i think i shld go back to square one.
thats where everything started, when things were still simple.
when there werent any expectations, when there werent so many stories.
after going one big round, its time to get back to the starting line and figure out the correct route to the finish line.
maybe being back in square one isnt such a bad thing after all.
but,
i cant bear to let the source of my motivation go.
its the beautiful scenery ive seen that kept me running and looking forward to the next pretty thing tht i will see.
going back to the beginning wld mark the start of an uncertain route.
perhaps, there wont be anything for me to see at all.
i may just lose my step halfway through that journey.
tell me, what shld i do?
shld i give up what i have and try again, or shld i stay in my comfort zone and see if things work out by itself?
oh mans.
i cant believe i came up with such a good analogy.
maybe its the late night that makes ppl emo and start thinking alot.
my most hated day is here again.
i shall go slp now before my most hated day becomes even worst for me.
so many things.
i wish i cld just say.
13 days =)
14 days =(

mata ne..