i am so freaking pist off today.
by ppl whom i have respected so much.
whom i thot were role models.
and they turned out to be so scheming and biased.
BIASED SHIT YOU PPL.
to think i had so much respect for you all.
and in addition to that,
you liar.
you lied to me.
or maybe you didnt.
maybe it wasnt the truth back then and now it is.
COME ON.
EVEN IDIOTS CAN TELL.
and i am not an idiot.
i may be inexperienced.
but THIS IS SO FREAKING OBVIOUS.
anyone can tell.
seriously.
or maybe its both sides eh.
maybe i am INTERRUPTING.
i will not do that anymore.
i will leave.
really.
i will.
soon.
give me time and il leave.
i free myself from all these and leave.
LIAR.
you are a JERK, just like HIM.
its okay.
there is NO NEED for you to prove anything to me.
i understand.
really, i do.
the pain that you are inflicting on me is tremendous.
and you have got no idea at all.
you IGNORANT SHIT.
and you blame me for the things that happen.
when the source of these problems is you.
its okay.
go on.
live your life.
and il live mine.
cz theres no way i can look into your face and talk to you.
so may as well pretend that we dont know each other and walk away.
am i maligning you?
nah.
you dont care and i dont either.
so does it matter anw?
seriously, you dont have any obligations to explain to me.
you really dont.
i am really tired of this.
i know.
i am not worthy enough to tell you anything.
and i have no right to expect anything from you at all.
i really feel that i dont.
but i guess you will never be able to understand all these until you know the whole truth.
and no.
i am not gna say.
neverminds.
and in addition to that,
why did you take it away?
do you have to snatch it off my very hands?
why cant you find your own?
i hate you for taking everything away from me.
i hate you for leaving me in this state.
i hate you for being so sticky.
ohwels.
now i really appreciate those who are truthful, innocent and pure.
cz theres so much evil out there and you get sick of the world.
haix.
watch the colour of my face change..
did you even see it at all?
everything was so, so clear before we tore apart.now all my passion's trapped inside this lonely, broken heart..mata ne..