tjc concert was =))
great.
i love the band tone.
haha.
yupps!
alrites.
i think theres sth wrong with me today.
when sth happens to you, and when you hurt for too long, you find that you will turn to desperate measures to get that pain off you.
and i get cold reactions from ppl.
i should learn to stop trusting ppl.
things come out too easily.
neverminds.
i am gna learn.
i am gna make myself learn.
oh yea.
second time le right.
its super duper obvious.
stop lying to me.
i dont see any other reason.
COME ON LAR.
dont take me for a fool.
i really dont have such good imagination until i can go and imagine all these nonsense.
yet, it had given me a new insight.
that it was purely insensitivity on your part.
now i understand.
hey i realise im better at ignoring now.
today was another job well done.
haha.
i think the numbness from the pain is coming soon.
tho not to my best, i can control it a little better than before.
i can now watch it, feel the pain, look away, and turn back, pretending that nothing happened.
pretend that i dont care or bother at all.
yes damnits!
im the best.
ahhaa.
okok.
i dont mean my that "im the best" part.
but back to the point, i can really keep it le!
i hope the numbness comes quicker.
cz i dont want to feel the pain anymore.
plus, its almost an everyday thing.
and i need to deal with it everytime.
so may as well make the numbness come quicker, so that i can feel it no more.
then life wld be so much better.
desensitized.
you drove me into it.
you caused everything.
i really dont wish to categorise you with him.
cz i really dont believe that you are like him.
he is a jerk, and i dont believe that you are one too.
cz you are very different from him.
yet.
things are making me think otherwise.
neverminds.
you dont have the obligation to prove me wrong.
so just live your life the way you want it.
and il see how il react to it.
oh whts the point.
you wont bother to read this anw.
huhs.
i realise,
maybe all the bitterness are actually a form of self defence.
good or bad, i dont know.
but at least now i know the nature of it.
hahs.
what the crap.
i am torn into two.
mata ne..