ohh.. cleaning up my room..
hms..
PLS IGNORE THE FOLLOWING.ah damnits.
this is un-rant-able.
one more step and im falling off the cliff.
everything is contradicting.
damnits.
i know i shld not be selfish and think abt myself.
i know i shld not self indulge.
i know i shld not wallow in self pity.
oh crap.
tell me what to do?
standing at a junction.
every part of me is telling me to go in different directions.
and its tearing me apart.
i hate myself so so much.
its not anyone's problem.
its not anyone's fault.
ITS MY FAULT.
ITS MY PROBLEM.
the problem lies within me.
i am the jerk.
i am the idiot.
i am such a useless brainless asshole.
hate myself.
many things ive said here.
they were just rants.
i may not have meant what i said.
but i mean it this time.
i hate myself more than anyone of you do.
i dont want to be me.
pls just trash me.
it feels like theres a blender within me.
its grinding me inside.
blending my insides into pulp.
and no.
pls dont pity me.
pls dont be obliged to do anything.
oh damnits.
this is so freaking horrible.
i hate myself.
i hate myself.
i hate myself.
and i hate myself for trashing ppl's lives.
ive trashed everyone's lives.
yes i have. everything is getting so cliched..
mata ne..