ive screwed up enough of my results.
i really need to study, and i know it.
and i study with frens to get my motivation, and to approach them if i have any problems.
but you refuse to let me.
and you doubt us.
you refuse to believe that we do study.
i dont want to get a tuition teacher cz its expensive.
and i know how our situation is right now.
if you want me to leave at such a deadly early hour, what do you want me to do?
i cant finish my work, and i have to come back and complete it.
and what if i cant do sth?
you cant teach me.
then how am i gna even improve?
its not like pri sch when you can study yourself and get the concepts just like that.
do you know how hard it is?
do you know how hard it is for me?
do you ask?
do you even care to understand the problems that i am facing?
do you even know that i am so screwed up that the world is literally crashing on me?
do you know how many problems i am facing with my studies and i never found solutions?
do you ever listen?
why are you always so unreasonable?
you always think that ppl dont stand on your side.
but do you know how unreasonable you are?
what is pride?
isit sth that you have to hold so high?
isit sth that you wld lie or even kill just to keep it up there?
i come back and use the computer.
so?
you use it more than i do.
and you use it for childish and idiotic purposes.
and you keep asking me all the computer stuff.
do i look like i know?
do i look like i take computing as one of my subjects?
isnt there anyone else to ask?
does it have to be me all the time?
dont i have better things to do?
i stay away, i escape.
cz i really want to study.
i really need to.
i have no choice.
i am such a dumb asshole that i cant do anything right.
you never helped me during my exam periods.
you only came to pick on me, to find faults with me.
cant you just leave me alone?
i alr have problems dealing with the stress, do you have to come and pour oil on the fire?
you have to do this all the time.
i dont hate you, but i hate whatever you are doing now.
i feel so stupidly helpless and i really dont know what to do.
jerk.
you never came to help.
arggghhh wht the hell.
i may as well go kill myself now.
i cant go on lidat.
how am i gna continue walking when ppl deliberately wounds my feet and keep me from walking?
i really want to give up.
i dont want to do this anymore.
mata ne..
