exhaustion.
its getting more tiring by the day.
but this is the last week of sch.
yea it will be my motivation.
of cz, i miss lots of things.
all the lectures, tutorials, hot weather, lessons that are so absolutely dry and mundane..
and il miss spotting all the ppl in sch.
saying hi to the ppl i meet along the way.
wel, 天下无不散之宴席。
guess everyone of us will have to leave each other at some point of time and move on with our lives.
going our own separate ways.
when will we then learn to treasure the ppl around us?
when will we learn to treasure the times that we have?
when will we treasure the relationships that we have with each other?
when will we learn to respect each other so that relationships wouldnt be so tensed?
hmms.
every individual would have experienced others calling them names throughout their lifetime.
but those names are the most harmless when they are called right into that person's face.
cz it gives that person a choice as to whether or not he will allow himself to be called by that nickname.
and when names are intentionally called behind a person's back, wel, i would say its pretty offending.
shouldnt human relationships, no matter how good or bad they are, be built on mutual trust and respect?
when will ppl start to think abt the ppl around them?
when will ppl be less selfish and more kind to the ppl around them?
why shld we make each other's lives so difficult when it is already not easy for anyone of us in the first place?
why should we push our luck and see how much each other can tolerate and only take one step back when the volcano erupts?
many of us are very insensitive to the feelings of the ppl around us.
perhaps i am like that.
maybe thts why ppl hate me.
oh what the hell.
what have i done to deserve that?
have i offended you guys in any way?
i hardly tapped your shoulders.
i hardly crossed your paths.
why is there a need to make the lives of the ppl around you so much harder?
i am not afraid of the name.
i am afraid of the intentions behind that name.
i would have laughed it off with you guys if there were no intentions behind it, like the way i laughed it off with others.
i can feel the sarcasm.
i can tell from the tone and the way ppl phrased their words.
ghosts or spirits are not scaree.
its the humans that are scaree.
its the intentions behind our every action that are really scaree.
who can guard our mind and our intentions except ourselves?
neverminds.
go on.
if you guys hate me, just say.
i will move as far away from you all as possible so that i dont offend any one of you in any way.
everything is ending anws.
but i still dont get it.
why should we find our happiness in the misery of others?
will that make any of our lives any better?
irony.
the pot calling the kettle black.
are we in a competition to see who is more childish?
oh gees.
neverminds.
i hate today.
haix.
wel, i am not so sure if i like that way of solving problems.
ohwels.
eh.
i failed my GP.
haix.
a reminder for myself.
Matthew 7:3-5.
"³Why do you look at the speck of sawdust in your brother's eye and pay no attention to the plank in your own eye? ⁴How can you say to your brother, 'Let me take the speck out of your eye,' when all the time there is a plank in your own eye? ⁵You hypocrite, first take the plank out of your own eye, and then you will see clearly to remove the speck from your brother's eye."
haix.
lost faith in ppl.
even animals, when driven into a corner, will retaliate violently.


mata ne..