i am drained.
very drained.
i hate it when the lousy feelings from the day before overflows into the next day.
it sucks.
its unfair to that new day cz it just screws up everything that happens on that day, no matter how good it may be.
im gna slp early tday.
cannot take it.
i need to slp so that il do more justice to the next day.
i think, the more tired you are, the more emotional you get.
nah theres just this overflowing mixture of feelings which i dont really know how to express.
which is better, cz the more i speak, the more mistakes i make.
the worst part is, i dont really know whats the source(s) of these multiple feelings oozing out all at the same time.
then how am i supposed to get these stuff away?
damns.
jeeva may just keep our class for two three hours on sat just to finish what we missed.
gosh.
and ms loh is nagging at us to make us go for GP practice on sat also.
yea cz i failed my prev GP paper by half a mark.
ohwels..
like she said, she has a reason for failing me.
i think i know why le.
ive made a similar mistake in the past two essays that i wrote.
and wel, obviously i didnt score too well for both of them.
mans.
gees.
why arent i doing well in everything?
HAIX.
its like, no matter how hard i sigh the gek-ness will still be there.
its like something heavy is placed on your chest lidat.
the heart is feeling heavy.
neverminds.
what can i do except practice and practice and practice.
theres a reason why ppl keep saying that practice makes perfect.
cz it had to be true.
just that, how long do i need to take?
and, time is obviously not on my side.
haix.
thinking of worst case senarios so that il be most prepared for the worst.
but its usually these worst case senarios that i have thot of that upsets me.
haiya i have to stop thinking and emerse myself in mugging.
ah stop stop stop.
im in confusion le.
damns.
dead tired.
my back is aching like shit.
hmm.
forgiving is hard, forgetting is harder.
but thats what i am gna work towards.
haix.
everyone is trying their very best.
so pls dont just walk away.
when the fear strikes your heart,
it sends frightening chills to every part of your body.mata ne..