yay i went msia to visit relatives from fri night to sun night.
i think my 四舅 very 伟大 eh.
he had been fetching us back and forth everytime we wna go back msia for at least the past 15 years.
then that day he was like saying, 洁曦 is growing up le.
his current car cant fit our family anymore so he might get a bigger car next year.
aww mans!
and when we thanked him for fetching us, he said, 是神的赐福！
oh gosh 四舅 is the bestest man!
haha.
all my cousins are growing up le.
that day the reunion dinner, we had 30 ppl.
eh i know to some ppl thats quite small but my dad's side is even smaller!
anw, yea lor.
so many ppl cz got 舅公 they all lar.
hmm so the exciting part of new year is over le.
probably one more reunion dinner w church's chinese dept then no more le.
gg to meet lirong tonight for dinner.
=D
yay probably another eat-walk-talk kind of outing.
what else can two girls do?
haha.
hm i hve a jap placement test tmr night after work.
so trying very hard to mug for it.
tho im quite sure its not gna have too much effect on my performance, but ohwels, what else can i do abt it except to study as much as i can?
results are probably not gna come out this week i guess.
doesnt seem like it.
no news so far, plus the army ppl hv got impt programmes gg on for them this week.
dont think its quite possible to cancel those progs.
no signs that they wld release the results soon.
ah just wait and see i guess.
oh and ppl treat me like junk mans.
so are you gna pay me for making me take a forced leave?
idiotic mans.
im pist off okay.
just hope that some sch will call me next fri and ask me to go down relief.
damnit mans.
haix sian.
life is boring.
im trying to get alot of things done right now to keep myself occupied.
eg, jap, new job, OG outing etc etc.
doing things simultaneously.
do until im so confused then i keep forgetting alot of things.
trying to write them all down.
i got so many to-do lists that i find it hard to keep track of all of them.
:/
my memory is failing me.
haha.
btw, OG outing changed to 1 march to all OG 12 ppl out there.
cz 23 march got the ntu talk then alot of ppl may not turn up.
yupps.
hmms.
recently i decided to stop trying when things cant happen the way i like it to be.
il just kick the ball and see where it goes.
if it chooses not to move then let it be; i wont force it to move.
some may say this is called resigning to fate.
but il tell you that im leaving everything to God le.
i realised that even if i got the strongest and biggest axe to cut the smallest and weakest tree, but God does not allow it to fall, i wont be able to even let one leave fall to the ground.
of cz, thats an exaggerated illustration.
but you get my point.
i sick and tired of getting pist at ppl for not helping me get things done.
like i said alot of times, i can try my hardest to make a clap sound, but if the other hand doesnt cooperate, theres no way i can force the clap to happen.
i shall just sit back and wait for ppl to do things for me.
haix.
just like everyone else, im tired too.
so why cant we all be more understanding towards each other and sometimes make a little more effort to do things for the ppl around us?
i wonder how long this mindset will stay w me.
one day, il sound ridiculous to myself again and il be driven to insanity again.
but in any case, i think im sane for now.
just that, as much as you cant be bothered, so cant i.


mata ne..