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ive had 2.5 bad days in a row.
isnt it gna stop?
im drowning in the vicious cycle.
ISNT IT ALL GNA FREAKING STOP?
RAHS.
maybe its cz i am becoming an oddball.
so odd that i was reprimanded these couple of days for no good reason.
a few times in a day.
like as if ppl cant find any other way to vent anger then come disturb me.
even take revenge on me, cz they are just bu shuang.
sit there also get scolded.
i have to redo and recalculate my lab report over and over again.
i have to delete and re-delete my sms cz my phone chooses to reset on me.
i have to download and redownload a game.
ppl snap at me.
ppl ignore me.
everyday practices dont happen these two days.
i cant delete that stupid icon off my desktop.
ppl dont reply my smses.
i ran out of cash.
damn.
are there more?
maybe its cz of my weird behaviour recently.
of which i cant explain.
i tried to make sense out of everything, but i get more lost instead.
its my mind.
sth is wrong with my way of thinking.
i want to tell it all to someone, so that they can correct me and bring me back to the right path.
no i cant.
ppl express themselves with what they are good at.
through drawing, essays, music, poetry, sports.
i cant cz i am average at everything.
so what if all my emotions are expressed through tears?
why cant anyone accept that?
why am i not allowed to let it out just like everyone?
no i cant.
damn.
why cant you just leave me alone?
why do you have to mess me up before you leave me alone?
its a whole chain of... hair ripping incidents.
how to study lidat?
im not doing well.
i cant take it.
im not THAT strong.
not THAT independent.
not THAT good at problem solving.
not THAT efficient.
not THAT amazing.
i wish that il disappear.
somehow.
mata ne..