firstly,
HAPPY BDAE CHUANXIN~see? i matched you with my fav colour.
DONT roll your eyes.
haha okok.
best wishes from me =)
hmm..
i havent blogged for ages.
it had been an eventful 2-weeks.
there were mid terms, youth bbq, loads of band prac, getting OG jackets, loads of mugging and neglecting of homework, loads of days gone w insufficient sleep, and getting back 2 screwed up papers.
i feel like giving up trying so hard.
sigh i really dont know what to say.
i dont know how to vent or express myself.
i just feel damn drained and i dont wna do anything anymore.
i really think that i am not intelligent enough.
i feel damn stupid amongst everyone.
come here and cushion the smart ppl.
ah, thanks cx and grace..
if i dont have ppl i know in sch, i really dont know what il do.
luckily im not like in some overseas sch or sth.
i think il just die there.
sigh.
kok's right.
i need to come up with some study plan or sth.
hai.
sometimes i wonder how ppl like zhenghong or zhiwei does it.
with a packed schedule like that, how do they even manage?
and they do well too.
this proves my point about my intelligence.
dr bettens said sth during lecture that day.
"working hard does not mean that you will do well.
when you work hard, you MAXIMISE your probability of doing well."
then he went on to rattle abt studying hard abt shakespeare for a chem test and that nothing wld work out.
-_-"
then he said. "of cz, the smarter ppl will have an easier life. if youre not so smart, like me, then you have to work very hard. too bad, thats life. too bad."
haha.
so true.
hmm..
recently im very confused again.
i shld stop analysing so deeply into things and just look at what to do next.
bahh, lets do some light hearted update.
eh concert's up next friday.
im quite looking forward to it actually.
cz it had been a long time since i last performed.
extreme makeover sounded much better ytd.
makes me motivated to prac it.
oh, let me intro my section a little.
i have a very big section, for the first time.
we have as much horns as trumpets, 17 ppl.
zzzz.
so many lar!
anw the cute snrs are... benson (very cute SL!), amanda (hit those notes for october!), jama (yes cutest snr. i know), mingwei (hi mingwei! =D now you rmb my name. haha.), natalie (WOOT! extreme makeover partnerrr), tim (fake chinese!), zhicheng (bip bip!!), joanna (-poke your face- haha), jason (chem snr!!).
wel, at least thats my impression of them at the moment.
first half year 1s.. puay bing (ahh ny tune in crasher who knows leon too!), guoxian (i know zhenghong and me miss you alot =) haha), zhuojing and simin (whom i have talked less than 10 sentences to).
i dont see the first half ppl at all cz when they got prac, we dont, and vice versa. =(
second half year 1s.. tzehao (yay thanks for sharing subway with me!), abel (the 2nd sentence i said to him was, "as in cain and abel?" haha! my didi la omg, so smart.), zhenghong (section mateyy! stop killing me w cheem chi and stop being so busy! and your dinner, and wake up late, and slp at 4am.. STOP IT).
yay band prac is fun with them around.
hmm.
i realise i din finish blogging abt SOW.
i reached the end of the first part i think.
aiya the behind part not so exciting.
haha.
we had on the following monday 4 aug FIC cum movie outing, tues FLAG, wed ECP outing, thur SOW CAMP part 2 amazing race around spore (which we nua-ed around instead) cum overnight stay and bbq, fri RAG.
yupp. orientation was fun actually.
alritey, thats it for the moment i guess.
tmr im gg to sch to study with cx, and then self prac w cx and zhenghong, then cx will go for first half prac at 7.30pm then we'll have 2nd half prac at 9pm.
zzz.
sometimes, i really have to plaster that smile on my face.
and i dont wna do that.
mata ne..
