ah think i might just end up in jap level 2.
cz i cant make it for level 4, level 3 also.
but i din study for the test lar, thats the thing.
the stuff that were tested werent things that were foreign to me.
i knew them, but just like an acquaintance that you randomly see in school; you arent familiar w them at all.
then when someone asks you what kind of "person" he/she is after you left sch for 2 years, you just cant find a word to pinpoint his/her character.
just like when they tested me on a particular grammar, i just cant find the right words to answer the questions directly.
cz i lost touch w jap for 2 years already!
omg the feeling is damn odd.
like so pathetic, wasted 10 years of studying jap lidat.
but then again, i din really waste that 10 years cz i really did learn things.
i do know alot more than those who finished japanese level 1.
and i SHOULD score better.
its gna pull up my pathetic CAP.
apparently.
going into a level that is too low for me will help me get good grades, as what everyone tells me.
sigh ive got mixed feelings.
anw, i went to tell zhenghong abt it.
me, "hey i got good news!"
zh, "what? you got into level 2?"
me, "yar! we are gna be classmates!"
zh, "ayye, lidat means youre gna trash me leh."
me, "eh dont worry il help you. ahahha."
oh and what he said came true lo.
well done.
->gloria a preview of your life
ahh ive been trying to study jap but very the not motivated
^Neglect of Nature^
why!
^Neglect of Nature^
and wad's there to study la
^Neglect of Nature^
fail the test and take level 2 with me la. hahaha
....
^Neglect of Nature^
huh? u wanna take jap this sem?
->gloria a preview of your life
yea..
->gloria a preview of your life
maybe
^Neglect of Nature^
u're supposed to wait for me rmb
haha sorry dude, i quoted you w/o your permission.
just thot that it was quite relevant.
haha.
aiya you probably wont see this anw. =X
end up really dont need to wait for him at all.
ohwels, at least im not taking jap alone.
BUT THATS NOT THE POINT.
sighhhh do you understand, no?
mixed feelings!
its like i failed myself but actually i din really fail myself.
cz i din apply what i know into the test.
din study for it.
but for my CAP grade's sake, i failed myself by not doing well for simple tests.
IS THIS MAKING SENSE?
its making alot of sense to me.
but the ppl ive been talking to dont get me.
ah never minds.
i know.
its like, im not doing my best.
and its not me to not do my best.
damn.
i can screw up ANY OTHER SUBJECT, even chem, but NOT jap.
if i screw up jap, then i have really failed myself.

mata ne..