sigh.
today is my last day of gg to sch for lessons as a freshie.
OH MY GOODNESS CAN YOU IMAGINE THAT ONE ACADEMIC YEAR FLEW PAST JUST LIKE THAT?!
i wonder what i had been doing.
all the uni memories seem so new.
but actually it hadnt been very long either.
it was just 12 and 13 weeks for sem 1 and 2.
but still!!
hmm exams are coming in a week's time.
24april CM1121
27april LSM1401
28april LAJ2201
2may CM1131.
dieeeeee.
i dont even know if my study methods are right.
i am feeling VERY insecure.
sigh.
time flies, doesnt it?
i wonder why each time im still surprised by that fact.
sighh.. actually i am very very tired.
and i am very emo.
my brain is like stale and stagnant.
and the word "sigh" appears in front of me every 5 minutes.
i need to look away, take a step back.
sch sucks big time.
BIG TIME.
recently i keep spamming calls to my friends after school cz i need ppl to talk to.
trying to scatter my complains around so that i get to vent and ppl dont get too tired of listening. at least, i hope not to tire them out.
thanks to all who listened to my nonsense.
im sorryyy..
but i want to ask for one more thing.
i need a hug badly.
cz hugs make me feel better.
and i dont get hugs in sch right now cz the ppl that will give me hugs are in ntu.
lirong is like miles away when shes staying in ntu.
even tho sunyu is here, i dont see her often.
and i havent been going over to her place for quite some time now.
i dont even know whats happening to rongjie lar.
i used to have mj hugging me everytime she sees me back in ny.
i hardly even see chuanxin in sch now, esp when band has ended.
shes not exactly very energetic recently too.
grace is like, super sianded.
but anw she got her bf too.
(oh yea i kinda get to leech from her everytime during CM1121 lab cz we both always cant finish and grace's bf and his frens will come and help her, and they will help me clean up too. WAH i feel quite paiseh. but so good arh, shes damn lucky shit to have a bf help her and everything. haha)
i duno how, but the ppl around me in nus recently are like, guys?
esp those that have the same modules as me.
and its damn impossible for guys to treat you seriously when you tell them that youre upset.
they'll just look at you and, "isit?"
or at most they'll just ask you why and ignore you after that when you tell them your reason.
ahhh.
AH IM FEELING VERY SAD =(
-screams-
AND I WANT A HUG!
so tired, im really very tired =(((
and no one will take that statement seriously.
hahha.
okok i dont know how else to rant without me repeating myself so il just end here.
i shld just go and be an introvert and draw my organic molecules all day.

mata ne..