loads of things to blog abt.
nice and not so nice things.
bleah.
whoo, im finally back from church camp in batam.
i would say its a pretty new experience.
learnt alot alot of new things abt "growing in grace".
i thot i never felt so enthusiastic about God's word for very long le.
i am quite satisfied with the things i have learnt this time.
=)
oh and looking aft my two sisters werent too bad.
haha.
in any case, whatever that happened on the trip back on the ferry was like ultimate shit.
i really really really dislike them alot. (lets not use the h word)
alot.
they really do fit each other dont they.
scheming, bitchy, playful, bad examples, leading kids astray.
i hope they will just stop getting in my way.
i have avoided them through the past 20 years of my life.
what more do they want?
ARGHHHHHH.
the mre i think abt them, the more i feel like strangling them.
i shall get them out of my head this moment.
weixiang was soooooooooo nice ytd!!!!!
so 感动！
hes like, the nicest nicest.
ytd i had to rush straight from the arrival hall at harbourfront to nus for comm meeting at 5pm.
yea straight after i reached s'pore i had to head back to sch.
then i was a little worried cz jiexin already has 2 luggages to carry le. i cant possibly make her take the train and carry the 3rd one home also. and some more have to look after jiexi.(yes the 3 of us went for church camp by ourselves.)
so happened that weixiang was gg there to meet his friend at 4pm at harbourfront so he offered to send me to sch (cz we were having band anw) and i can put my luggage in his car too.
wahhh made him wait for so long i so paiseh!
then he sent me home after band.
thanks for picking me up from harbourfront and sending me all the way home! =)
omg!! yes yes il rmb the $1.50/2 min.
pay you back by installments. haha.
anw at comm meeting i couldnt catch any ball, i am sorry!! =(
i din know what they were talking abt =(((
i think cz maybe i too rush alr. then i wasnt there for the first part of the meeting.
=((
band was fun. i love phantom of the opera. =)
in any case, i made a discovery ytd.
and it made me feel very bad.
i never wanted anyone to be caught in a dilemma when they are helping me.
i always wanted ppl to be straightfoward, if really cannot just tell me.
i wont mind, i really dont.
its not like i cant do certain things by myself.
its just that, you will just relieve me from some trouble when you help.
i dont understand why it was never told to me.
am i that unapproachable to the extent that ppl dont dare to tell me that they wont be able to help me?
but i thot i always say, "if cannot just say okay."
after all the thinking i finally came to a conclusion.
never depend on others.
so that ppl wont ultimately get unhappy with me cz they feel that they cant reject me when i ask them for help.
and so, i realise that certain smiles that ppl give are so fake.
underneath the smile is a bucketful of complains and unhappiness with you and what you do.
i was naive wasnt i?
i thot everyone else was as real as i am to others.
mata ne..
