i guess the hectic and emotional-breakdown-able week is finally gone.
thank God for the strength to face all those things by myself and yet learn something new at the same time.
sighs.

tuition has officially ended for 2 of my students for this week. yay!
ie, more time for myself, to catch up with my work especially.
looking at my CM2102 that i screwed up today, sigh. i really want to score well you know.
i want to achieve THAT level of understanding.
always seeing seniors like jason proclaiming the theories like its so part of them, like its so logical and all, makes me very very envious!
but then again, cz i had time today.
i nua-ed it all away!
WAHLAO.
and i have officially accumulated 3 uncompleted lab reports. zzz.
oh but thank God, i had a lab report that was supposed to be due today (tues), but i thot it was on monday and i panicked so badly cz i had a test on monday and i was praying and all.
guess what, the lab report isnt just NOT due on tuesday, the deadline is extended to next week.
THANK GOD!
upcoming org test, im gna conquer it okay.
seriously.
:/

and i feel quite contradicted gg to two places at the same time.
i really wonder if that is the right thing to do.
i am really pretty much enjoying myself over at the other place.
and.. i feel like im growing there, but not here.
damn. this is bad.

when i saw those tears of pain and sorrow, my heart really went out to that person.
theres just so much being carried onto the back, lots of pushing and self discipline.
so hard that it is no longer normal.
but everytime, when the pain passes, hurt is inflicted upon others.
i just feel that its very contradictory.
somehow theres this very weird feeling.
i know i shld support and help and encourage, but the way that everything is being given back, its like..
...
sigh i duno lar.
i wondered if its cz of the need to achieve that self satisfaction and the ego booster or sth.
yes, its painful for you, but its as painful for me as well.

you know uni life really just sucks that much.
oh and i had old frens catching up with me SO RANDOMLY in the past couple of days.
maurice msged me and adam msned me?
wahsehs.
make me miss jc life alot alot alot.
i want to go back.
and im surprised that my old fren ahkok still reads this stupid space. hahaha.
kok! -waves-
can you stop MIA-ing! i want to do proper catching up with you!
-pulls your bag-
haha.
I MISS JC LIFE!

mata ne..