i agree very much with my tee 1 that i havent been updating this blog.
haha no lar, recently had been crazily busy until i
1) dont have time to update
2) dont have time to stop and think and emo
basically i was just running up and down each day trying to complete all the tasks that im supposed to do.
well, in any case,
my 21st bdae was over and it felt quite... i duno. nothing much.
i din feel much older or anything, cz basically life was still busy, and life still sucked. haha.
hey, but 21 years of my life, i look back, i have learnt much, grown much, but yet i can still be struggling with small things.
thanks to all my frens who came for my bdae party and gave me loads of presents <3
love them.
and love them for being a part of my life. they were the ones who made me who i am today. haha.
of cz, must really thank God for being so gracious to be all these while.
everytime i keep turning back to my sins and upsetting Him, everytime i cant pass the trials that He put in my life, He still loves me and helps me in everything that i do.
He patiently teaches me about the things that i struggle in life with, and everytime He hopes that i will continue to stay close to Him and to hand all my troubles to Him.
that is how good God is to me.
the most recent lesson i have learnt would actually be about faith.
He taught me how to have faith in Him.
and slowly as i learn, i discover something new and wonderful about Him each day.
and i really love the Lord alot that i want to obey Him with every part of my life.
but i am always weak, and i am always going back to the earthly things.
sigh.
someone (just not to mention names) is scaring me with the "you got anything to update me?" sessions..
i really think that there is something i should know.
yes, and that is my latest struggle.
which i am really really afraid that i will disobey God cz i give in.
sigh, i really duno what to do.
exams are coming..
this is my study week.
the semester had really flown past and i am very very surprised by the humongous amount of energy God has given me to survive through this semester.
i really could not have imagine how much i have accomplished.
now to trust God for my exams.
i really need to do well, if not next academic year would be my last year of studies...
il do my best and leave the rest to Him.
anw, for some good news.
my blog entry is gna be up on the next copy of jplus! hahah. happiness.
i cant imagine i really survived through japanese 5!
now that i think back and look at how worried i was when i first took it up, i think its really God's grace that i completed the module without much failures.
i mean, of cz the journey was very tough i would say.
i took me quite alot to catch up.
but, no i am really really not zai.
now that i have already taken the exam for jap 5 and everything for the course is now completed,
all i can say now is,
wah.
i cant believe its over.
i thought i would have died halfway through.
now to chiong for the chem modules :)
sometimes, i wonder what life is about.
and i wonder how all the little things that happen everyday make up this thing called our "life".
what exactly are human relationships?
how ppl just come and go in our lives, and each one makes a different impression.
why do all these things happen?
what are feelings and why do they affect us?
how do scientific theories and all the other different kinds of theories come about?
and what is the way we live?
these questions often question my place on this earth, in the lives of others.
and what i ought to bring with me after my life ends one day.
in any case, i just realised that i never had to have ppl telling me that my blog was rotting for the past 4 years of blogging!
guess this sem was really too busy until i din even have the time to stop and think.
sighs.
oh one more good news.
i am officially in the japan team for gen12ii and i am going to osaka for a month of missions and doing God's work.
hahaha.
i hope my jap is not too cui to talk to the ppl there.
｢かまへん、かまへん！」 as what the osaka ppl would say i guess. hahhaa.
and i am still loving massu <3
oh yes, i changed my hp and tegomasu are on one of my wall papers :)
hahahhaha.
guess i should end hereeeee...
cz i got to go study analytical chemmm.
DAMNNNN, i really hate this mod. hahhaha.
sighs.
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